My Career Struggle-Episode 2
Good afternoon Yewande,
First of all, I must say you have an amazing blog and reading your ‘failure story’ kind of made me to want to unburden my personal and present career struggles.
I will also like to say thanks for such a creative an educative blog -it feels so warm and genuine as i flipped through the contents. keep the flag high.
I really don’t know where to start from and I don’t want to bore you as well but apologies if my write up is offensive to you as I’m at my wits ends. and it might be a long read .
A short background to who i am and what has led to my present mode of stagnancy-I’m an English Language graduate that graduated in 2006 without the slightest thought or career advise as to what next i could do with my life needless to say all i knew was that i didn’t want a Bank related job but i was fine to work anywhere-suffice to say my first job was an advertising company that i had to be involved in marketing which i hated and after some few months.
I got a call from Shell for an interview…i was like where did they get my cv from ? but my sister, i was happy and passed the interview and i became an executive assistant to the VP finance as well as business support analyst and admin to the finance department and all this was in 2009 and yewande,looking back at all those years i feel terribly bitter and angry at myself for staying this long as i am tired of what i do as there are no challenges and i feel so rusted and under utilized.
I should have moved on after 2 years but i kept hoping to be converted to a full staff which will ease my movement to the HR department which later in life, i started understanding my reason for existence and realized that HR dept is where i will love to grow and develop but here i am writing to you in 2019 at 37 still doing the same role with no sight of the conversion which doesn’t even seem important to me again as i just want to chart a better course for my life.
Not to blow my own trumpet,I know i am duly appreciated for my great organisational effectiveness but i am tired of ‘not growing’ .It is a very comfortable point as i am in daily interaction with top shell management but i keep asking-why did i tarry so long in a role that doesn’t help me to another higher and better level.
Yewande, 2 years ago-i actively started applying for HR roles-i didn’t even mind starting at the bottom level as long as i am fulfilled and growing in knowledge-i really wanted growth and creativity which i wasn’t getting.i kept applying but all i was seeing was 3 to 10 years experience required etc-i didn’t give up even at that-i got called for one interview which i flunked(they knew i had zero HR experience but probably they wanted something else i didnt have and worthy of note is the fact that as good as i may get on my job with minimal supervision-i hate interviews as i always feel so nervous and shaky so maybe just maybe i was seen as unfit to be part of their organisation).
I registered at CIPM for intermediate 2 which i failed twice but i am willing to give it another shot by August this year. I also enrolled for PHRI classes and wrote with HRCI in 2017 and i passed.
You might wonder why i didn’t look within shell-that is story for another day as i kept asking what else i could do and i tried that also. I didn’t even mind a pay cut as long as i fit into an organisational that had high regard for its workforce development.
Here is my major dilemma, how can i get a role as an HR generalist with zero experience?Where do you think i stand a chance knowing fully well as i am not a fresh graduate ?I also used to love writing and now when i read good articles or write-ups, i am like but i should be able to do this now-guess i should just start writing again………
I am sincerely sorry for this long post o . I will be happy to hear from you (smiles)
Thanks for the ‘listening’ ear o. i just needed to unburden.